We are now 10 days into the new year and I feel like it’s opposite year for me. Most people start the new year motivated and ready to accomplish their goals. It has been opposite for me. I have felt less motivated and all around bummed this past week. I usually am a very motivated person and have a relatively easy time setting goals and working hard on accomplishing them. I definitely have set some new goals this year, but the past 10 days I feel like I have gone backwards in accomplishing them. I think I started this new year with a bad case of the blues and it’s been hard for me to get over it.
Leaving Utah had a big role to play with my bummed feeling. It was so hard for me this time around. These past 2 days of classes definitely didn’t help either. I am taking a LOAD of classes and as I’ve started them, each one of my professors started the class saying, “This class is not easy. It requires a minimum of 5 hours of study time outside of class, the tests are not multiple choice, and you are going to have to work hard…” I know that most professors try and scare you on the first day, but in reality, the classes I am taking are in fact hard classes that take a lot of work. And to graduate this spring (which is pretty much mandatory for me) I can’t drop any of them.
On top of all that, I have 0 motivation to run these days, which is probably the most frustrating of everything. I have such big goals for running for my final season of competitively racing, and I am in a perfect position to obtain them. BUT, I won’t obtain them if I have no motivation to keep working. It is the most annoying frustrating thing to have goals set, knowledge that you know you can obtain them, but no motivation to do the work to get there. ugh.
Anyway, that is how I have been feeling lately and I needed to ramble about it for a bit.
To leave you on a less depressing note… go and watch my little sister, post surgery, when she was on loritab. F.U.N.N.Y! Here is the link….http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?v=2990914496153 (makes me miss her though 🙁 )