On My Mind

Life.

Michelle Thornton was a beautiful woman.  She had deep blue eyes, blond curly hair, and a smile that was not shy.  Michelle loved to make others happy and always had a few jokes up her sleeve, just in case.  Michelle opted to watch the Disney Channel on the T.V. because, “all the other stuff gives me a headache!”  Michelle was my first friend in our new ward here in Atlanta.  Michelle got rides from Nate and I every Sunday and was my texting buddy.  Michelle is now gone.  She passed away 2 days ago.

Life is so fragile.  
As Nate and I were running on Saturday he asked me if hearing some bad news would ruin my run or if I could handle it.  Obviously, since he told me he had something to tell me, I was too impatient to wait till after the run.  Nate told me before he started running with me he got off the phone with our bishop who had informed him of Michelle’s death and her funeral which would be held later that day.  As Nate told me this I was taken way off guard.  
For the previous 2 weeks I had been trying to get in touch with Michelle.  She usually, like clockwork, would text me every week to say hi and on Saturdays would ask to get picked up for church.  When she never text me and didn’t reply to my texts/calls I knew something was wrong.  I am in the primary at church so I never here any of the announcements, and I unfortunately didn’t go out of my bubble to ask anyone if they knew what was wrong with Michelle.  Then next thing I know, she’s gone. Dead.  
The rest of the run I kept thinking of how I wished I would have tried harder to find out what was wrong with Michelle.  The past 2 weeks I have felt like I have needed to be doing more for people, but I never got around to it.  Turns out that she was in the hospital, very sick for about a week and a half.  I feel like I missed a prompting to go and visit Michelle.  And now, it’s too late.
Life is so fragile.
The rest of this weekend I have been contemplating how precious life is. It is so easy to get caught up in my own life and forget that I live amongst others.  Other people  lives who are just as important as my own.  I am sad to say it takes something so big, like Michelle passing away, for me to open my eyes a little wider and look around me.  I don’t want to be that person that is so self-absorbed that I don’t realize that there are others all around me whom I can help and who can help me.  It got me thinking about Maslow’s Hierarchy of Needs.  Maslow was a psychologist who did a study using a baby monkey.  He wanted to know out of physical needs or belongingness/love needs, which the baby monkey needed more.  He tested it by having two fake “momma monkeys.”  One “mamma monkey” had milk; the other “mamma monkey” had a blanket wrapped around and was ‘cuddly.’  To Maslow’s surprise, the baby monkey chose the cuddly “mamma monkey” over the milk.  This study came into my head as I thought about how important it is to interact with others and show love for them.  And though we would all die if our physical needs weren’t met, as the baby monkey illustrated, our needs to be loved are just as, if not more, important to our survival.
With that being said, I need to say this: I love you.  I love all of you.  Even if you are someone I barely know who just likes to creep on our blog cause I know I creep on soooo many other blogs :). I seriously do love each and every one of you.  I am here to help you too!  I may not have a ton of time and might live too far away, but I can always make time for a phone call, text message, email, lunch date… you name it.  I don’t want to live with my head down, pointed straight ahead.  I want to live and take advantage of all of my opportunities that I can catch! What I am trying to say is,
Life is so fragile…
but don’t be afraid to break it!
P.S. On a side note….
It was NCAA Track & Field Indoor Nats this weekend!  You know what that means….

SHE DID IT AGAIN!  My besto, Lacey Bleazard, won the 800 meters last night.  She is now a TWO TIME national champion for the Indoor 800!  Way to go “bone-saw”, you smoked those “grandmas!”  🙂

P.P.S.  Watching all these races made me realize something…. I wanna WIN.  I am now, more than ever, on a quest.  “One day at a time.”  Stay tuned…. 😉
  
  

3 thoughts on “Life.

  1. I am so sorry Kacee and Nate. It is hard to loose someone you feel close to. It just makes the Atonement that much sweeter to know that you are able to see her again. Love you both!

  2. Congrats to Lacey!

    Kacee,
    You touch more lives than you realize. Keep smiling!

    Oh – I love you too!

    Mom

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